Another bump in the road?

So I've been in the Preschool (PS) room for 3 months now. Since everyone has been talking about me being in there in the fall, I thought I had the job... well I dont.  I'm tired of going for positions in that place and never getting them.  I'm now the "Art Teacher" which means diddly squat and just a fancy name for a float...
I'm trying to look at the positive and realize I"m going back to school and going to get out of there. Its a stepping stone for something better. What that "something better" is I dont know but there is always something better right??? Well I sure as hell hope so because it this pretty much sucks.... I'm so upset that I keep crying over it. Just tell me I suck adn get it over with..dont beat around the bush.  I hate this. I'm trying to stay positive and hope that it gets better...

Black Sheep...

Ever feel like you are the black sheep in your family? I do. All the time. Especially this weekend. I'm constantly comparing myself to other family members. I'm not pretty like one, I dont have my Master's degree- let alone my bachelor's degree like another, I'm too fat, I'm not married, I still live at home... and the list goes on. Even between my brothers and me I feel like the "odd" one- It just sucks. BIG TIME!

Social Life

Back in October 2011, I not only lost my job (due to relocation of my part time job) but my social life as well. I would sit (or try to much to the dismay of my supervisors I"m sure!) next to the same people and we'd talk and work. For 12 to 16 hours a week I would be able to talk with friends and I miss them dearly. Also on Saturdays, whether I was working or not, Patty, Joanne and I would go to lunch- another social aspect gone.
I miss my ARC friends and not seeing them all the time. I miss my social life- I just need a girls night out. It's very difficult to schedule a girls night.
I'm lonely and have never been good at making friends- all my friends have been made through work and school or other friends. Hopefully going back to school will help me make new friends...

1st post

I've been debating for a long time on whether to blog or not and more importantly what to write about. Many people write about their lives, babies, weddings, hobbies or  things that interest them- Well my life is not very interesting, I don’t have a baby, or a wedding to plan and I don’t have any hobbies! But I want to blog- I just don’t know about what.